Part 5: I am involved so it concerns me

Thank you so much Mister Max. Yes, thank you so much for your reply. It was really nice of you to ask. And all the way from England! And so prompt. It was really touching when you especially asked directly me how he is doing at a moment that thoughts alter and severely corrode maybe too. I went straight to him, knocked on his doors, encountered some screaming from inside. No, it is not good. It is not good these developments. Oh, one can not imagine how different he expected it to be once the summer would pass. He really had a drive to create some local but radical changes and not to stumble into obvious new and old potholes. I did not leave. I hang around the place long enough to witness. When he read your kind concern he did at first react quite erratic which was followed by a confusion of laughs. I know he really appreciated your attention. And then he was confused, maybe hurt even. But that had nothing to do with you.

Who is this Carla he is revering to?

He totally forgot how he dragged me into the public domain!

I wonder how this Max got hold of Carla!

Here he is so right: I have nothing to do with the correspondence. Tilbud and Tilbake signed it and are just overlooked again and neglected by all. Mr Albert as well as Mr Robert did the same not much later: just dropping details now to divert. Tilbud and Tilbake are actually not even available if one wanted them and off somewhere or in some degree and certainly not back yet to answer his little bit pitiful post of despair. Maybe I should clarify a little this reoccurring pancake affair: Sluik had send out a call for a helping hand. while they are admiring the sun with their crowd or alone. Tilbud is on a cheap chill Costa for this and Tilbake obviously has enough with a postcard of sunny Acapulco on the wall above his bed. They both really think in their own way that the sun shines just for them and get preoccupied and tend to forget him as much others overlook them. Leave them be, they are not the issue. They can be so easily neglected and they still have feet. It does not help them or hurt him to solve the mess he got himself into. He continued with his old self and for a moment here I wish Senis popping up. Although I know he does not interfere.

Nothing else? No offers or deals?

Oh, it is so rare: real concern. When people take time, I mean, and really go into the matter. Other people's matters. No not poking around. That is not what I mean. One should not poke. Attentive unselfishly concern is different. Deep attention, not just a quick scan on the surface. To become one and to take that risk to misunderstand and being misunderstood. These days it still has to lead to merchandise! Senis says it simply does not exist yet: concern. Merely the attempts do and that is what we should call them. We should not ignore those attempts though. Far from it. They should be cuddled and treasured until one day we can deal with concern and we can value others in real time, in real circumstances. Before that time comes we have to do with the substitutes, the virtual puppets, the make belief of truth. Senis promises it will work when we stick to it.

Can this Max read?

No, it is not good these new developments. And in all my naivety I thought I could just follow one line and do it chronologically. I hate it when it becomes so chaotic and confusion seems to take over and options are so endless. It is bad enough when one has to observe and describe this tendency of matter which associatively is mixing up thoughts and ideas. Maybe I am too rough in that sense or too much a perfectionist for that matter. I know I have to return to it sometime but he is weak for the moment. It would not be fair now. A gaping mouth easily hooked and a simple shot in the back of the head. It is however not the last said on it by far. No snow has fallen yet so far though. And I have to be so careful not to get involved. At least not more than an observer can be involved in such things. Before you know they call me Gonzo too and only think of it as that puppet!

Utter Fool! Utter Fool!

He was the one who asked for help and included Max. I must have been so from another planet in the beginning thinking I would not get involved. I would just stay neatly outside the lines of the field. Oh, do not worry I will not continue this for ever: I just need to get this off my chest. You have any idea how important it is for me to be taken seriously and to be treated accordingly. Oh yes, flowers do wonders sometimes, ask any woman! I am too agitated for the accusation that I am old fashioned and not emancipated enough. Wash the mouth before speaking brainless twitter! ...Poor Max!

Why do I bother? Feeding sheep blindly, that is what it is! Oh, give me that bottle Louis Nag Nagel! I will empty that half for you! Open your mouth you suffocating sweet collaborating nurse of the third generation! Repent and swallow!

For the moment he hardly realized there was more, more sweet and courteous drips of attention. Just drips till now though and according to him all somehow almond sweet in scent.